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- Matt Misso no song. i just made it up in a text
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
enjoy it while you can kid you'll miss it later
remember when we were kids and blackouts were almost like holidays?
well, at least they broke up the monotony some.
we don't like blackouts as much these days.
yeah part of it is because we grew up and aren't as handily amused
then some of our growths were stunted, emotionally, by drugs.
i theorize that the correlation between central electricity and age may not even be the overarching cause.
sure, it's bad not to have power in most human settings... since the industrial revolution
woody guthrie is one of the reasons we're all saying what we want to say online. he said, himself, that there "ain't no country extry fine.. when you're just a mile from the end of the [power] line"
but we scream and cry and panic when our phones and computers because of the grib they have.
since it coincides with my decision to stay busier while work and school are sparse,
i have decided that i will embrace every much-needed break from technology gone awry. i've neglected reading, academia, friendships, real life events
to be sitting here, jet lagged, at 7:50am typing this
i will walk every day. i will never lie on the couch again. while my phone is broken, i'll do something constructive, creative. fear is the mind killer, but convenient technology is the talent killer.
i'll strive to sink as much time into self-expression (particularly when it goes back as far as histroy, like playing a musical instrument) as i do online.
i'm glad this phone is a piece of shit. today i make a change. today i stop giving a fuck that the talent-crusher isn't giving me a tumor or destroying my ambition.
i start now.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
it's witchcraft
there goes a man
who’s lost everything
and when there’s nothing
there’s a blue steam under the pillowcase surface
the other side is cooler
always has been
but tonight is different
rock bottom turns to quicksand
Friday, July 1, 2011
woodward bound
i noticed you from a distance and was moved
my druthers would urge me to move even closer
even more closely
and i saw that overwhelming pure light
it did something even anesthesia can’t do to me
TKO
stunned— your orange aura and team spirit
well, before i go into that, remember when you said
i really do not know what to say and i’m never at a loss for words
so it is with me, JINX!
i was at a loss but when i lose, i lose consistently
and i want a name when i lose
but you’re sleeping with the enemy
we have something in common.
difference
when you are speechless you stop
at times, for me, when i don’t have the words, they come out involuntarily
since i have no internal filter
so all that was the long way around saying that when i saw you
instead
of
freezing
up
or
becoming human petrification
i spoke ‘god bless you’
and thus begun the courtship
and just when i knew thought you had given up on me,
you gave me the greatest day of my life and i want to see you ever day and
be your boyfriend
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Nota dema
Don’t worry about anything. Be happy because everything is going your way more than it has in a long time. Just work on your portion control and exercise and smoke the cuban cigar that’s goin out while you droid and drive
tidal wave of nostalgia in the biting cold
Just surged thru me as I’m ridin to gas station w christina (I’m droiding and driving as she holds the wheel). I was talkin to james cobra and thinkin about past present and future with that old friend… I was just about to change my current city from austin back to one in alabama. I was thinking about whether I should think broad or specific as to which city/suburb/town to represent.
Then I remembered when you said you either wanted to live in crestwood or [somewhere I don’t remember] if you stayed in alabama and I remember how that just blew me away; almost as spiritual as finding out you were a trekkie because I represent the legendary heart of dixie by way of crestwood and I lived there the first twelve years of my life and I always wanted to move back to that same house in crestwood.
Its the one I left to move out here to clay, alabama where I met my first clay friend, james cobra.
The wave of nostalgia and angst and maybe fear/panic hit me wondering just how many memories and reminders and triggers would come with that old house. I remember the sound of the dove singing. It still calms me. I remember my great grandmother. I remember the in-ground swimming pool my dad built himself in nine days.
But the wave was a bad rush. Not a good one. You’re not enough to cause that level of a rxn. Maybe I’m just afraid of nostalgia itself.
I wish id written this better and maybe started earlier.
“And everythangs a dollar…
In this box”
—tom waits
DON'T READ THIS ONE FIRST. IT SUCKS AND IS NOT REPRESENTATIVE OF THE REST. I WISH I KNEW HOW TO ORGANIZE EM
The breeze of three fifty+two amen Cools, spiritually and otherwise as our paths cross Never to happen again
You and your thinki— nay, +calcul8ng+ clouds swallow me like moby dick from the bible. I back stabbath thee
My face is relaxed. It is a sheet of flesh that slides ever downward, thus making me an honorary mouth breather.
I can move my brain into my toes I bring awareness next, to my ankles then I repeat til my whole body has registered with brain. I feel like I am flying, ever upward. Problems are solved. Perspective is obtained
halfway between the out of doors and inside the lakehouse as you read this, send your brain to my eyes. Right now I see an almost anachronistic smart phone
bushes, the white handrail, just had minor halluciation. I see my enlightened thumbs typing like larry q motherfucker
Naturally, I live the rocknroll lifestyle; I rock ta live and live ta rock
But that’s not what got me to this rocking chair.
I see my arms, my shins. Feet toes, calves, legs. Wind chimes time so perfectly that it almost supports chritian shit. That my cue. Everyone reading, pls gimme feedback or reblogs or tips… w/e
Not I shall melt into the earth
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
if u walk on water, they'll say you can't swim
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
finite and infinte games
VOWS
with this rig,
i deflate my ego
to have had and to have sold
to destroy and disobey
to throw it all away
rock bottom turns to quicksand
she told me
“it can always get worse”
then
she proved it
[ed. note: yeah this is way-ass thrown together. i’m gonna work on it and make it better and we’ll get it out there to ya]
BE NOT PROUD
if death were a bunny
with a question-mark god
that bunny would hop around and be a shit factory
the usernames have been changed to protect the not guilty.
[15:28][your blogger] right now i feel like i’m totally made of metal
[15:28][your blogger] I AM IRON MAN
[15:28][your blogger] but sometimes, my balls hang so low
[15:28][your blogger] that the sparks begin to flow
[15:28][your blogger] like a river of cold semen
[15:28][your blogger]
[15:29][your blogger] right now i feel jealous and concerned and maybe a little betrayed
[15:29][your blogger] the unicorns i slayed
[15:29][your blogger] will never be horny again
[15:29][your blogger] but the last time i rode one thru the rainforest
[15:30][your blogger] ]i spared her
[15:30][your blogger]
[15:30][your blogger] i feel like she won’t spare me
[15:30][your blogger] or that she will
[15:30][your blogger] i know she’s honest
[15:30][your blogger] and i pay her bills
[15:30][your blogger] but i guess my trust issues are my problem and not hers
[15:30][your blogger]
[15:31][your blogger] right now i’m overmedicated
[15:31][your blogger] make the words up as i go a long
[15:31][powerpuffgirl] uhhgain
[15:31][your blogger] poetry is eeasier on drugs
[15:31][your blogger] better living thru chemistry
[15:31][your blogger] worse living thru reality
[15:31][your blogger]
[15:31][your blogger] nah i’m just tryin to express myself
[15:32][your blogger] don’t be bothered, powerpuffgirl
[15:32][your blogger] for tomorrow we dine with the devil
[15:32][your blogger] and the next day, dine alone
[15:32][your blogger] i want to salt the earth
[15:32][your blogger] so that nothing
[15:32][your blogger] will
[15:32][your blogger] grow
[15:34][powerpuffgirl] cool
[15:34][your blogger] really?
[15:35][powerpuffgirl] oh i dont know..i didnt read it fully
intern expatriate
noise of a glimmer sparks the morn,
or the eve of nevermore
when god lifts the fog,
whenever she arrives
he awaits to be exhaulted
glory to god on the highest
then one thousand days in sodom
repeat
southport and belmont
i’m on my medication so i don’t have any sense of judgment or discipline. it happens a lot.
fugly
compromizing
is the king shit of fuck mountain
who lives in his own filth
in gary, indiana
a small town outside of chicago
the windy city
chitown
where i wanna be again
editor’s note: chicago, that is; not gary.
APPARENTLY
I’M A FUCKING CRIMINAL MASTERMIND
JUNKIE
PSYCHOLOGICAL MAD SCIENTIST
WHO CAN HAVE ANY WOMAN HE WANTS
ONLY TO DESTROY HER FOR FUN.
WHY?
YOU DON’T KNOW. I JUST AM.
for chuck b
it’s almost 4am. i slept til 6:30p the night before last and until 9:15p or so tonight. drugs help, but i still feel kinda strange.
poet persecution at large
stigmata martyr
undead undead undead
bela lugosi’s dead
prostitution
the world’s boldest profession
balls
ballsy super cock
cerebrel ballsy
i grab my balls
sometimes my balls feel like tits
some shit
DON’T FUCK W ME SOLDIER
WHAT IS YOUR MAJOR MALFUNCTION?
PRIVATE PYLE IS GONNA KILL ME AND THEN TURN THE GUN ON HIMSELF
and i don’t know whether to be worried or relieved
i spent six————teen years in a liferaft
the first time they executed me (gas chamber) for all those murders,
i didn’t panic or hold my breath
i breathed in
deep
whatever you do don't let these few starting here be your impression of this page
i wake on mother earth, then stand
on rocks and shards of glass
though cracked stepping stones dare not lie
i suffer still the path
hot flesh meets cold stone; i approach
fertlize her mother’s grave
to help the roses’ stems along
i pray they’ll swallow it one day
and take the etched, wretched words away
rest in pieces
rest in feces
he holds that rock in one hand
6 fingers clutching for dear life
begging trust to be enough to molten
and sustain the couples’ diet
so quick to remind
that as i grow wider
pseudo starcrossed lovers chicly shrivel
like every other weapon-word they’ve said
they won’t even remember
etched indellibly into my very flesh
the ink is on my digging arm
that’s just unearthed a pile
6 feet for you and
6 for him
i suffer still her wrath
(we call it 'space reggae' for now)
][internet rapist] bachside caspian sea
[14:13][internet rapist] and you’re smokin weed while i eatcher poosaaaaaaaaaaaaay
[14:13][internet rapist] and it’s good to me
[14:13][internet rapist] but you haven’t been
[14:13][internet rapist] i don’t like reggae
[14:13][internet rapist] i love it
[14:13][internet rapist]
[14:14][internet rapist] cocaine up your broken down nose
[14:14][internet rapist] black eyes on white sand and the wind blows
[14:14][internet rapist] and i call you toe
[14:14][internet rapist] short for fory
[14:14][internet rapist] and that’s short for victoria
[14:14][internet rapist] and you’re toe’s in the sand
[14:14][internet rapist] writing that you heart me
[14:17][internet rapist] bikini stacked neatly
[14:17][internet rapist] in squares beside round pillows beside oval pills
denying me
i used to have big ears
heavy heat
is this the one?
is THIS the one?
is this the once upon a time that’s gonna kill me?
i figured out last september that you are indeed the open end of the wrench in the gears
on the brink to over the edge
own the brink; too over the edge
not there yet but it will arrive.
we will get there and you will know my name is the lord and the globe from your shoulders will be lifted
the bad news is that all that sunshine just means it won’t be the earth you’re carrying next time.
you’re not it.
i do it for the kids
i can see clearly now
what a bright, sunny requiem for a daydream
a cloud lazily wanders by my field and stream of vision of love
jagged and stony,
galvanized
softcore
but with a silvery exterior.
it’s rocky like a cliff with footfalls and no lanyard
and razor sharp around the unfinished edges
grey
jagged cloud
your rein will be missed
but not today
it’s sunny
RIP DAD
there is no constitution that is not deliverance
there is no delivery that is not from point a
to point z
and all points in between
x up and b down
down the stairs into the garage
with the bmw
that your father gave you for moving back home
and then took away
his last words were
don’t park it somewhere the top will get cut up
the top got cut up and all you could think about was how in the fuck you were gonna explain it to him
then you woke up the next morning as hungover as you’d ever been and found out that he was dead
whew. now you don’t have to tell him.
222much
fragrant falls of water white and cool
the sound of sesame,
and taste of azul
queerest fancies dance upon the mind
blinking deafening quiet renders blind
another mouse
I see you swimming in white, luminescent sheets
I see the top of your head
From behind
Your golden hair
Shoulders
Back
The creme climbing the fair silken flesh
Most of your ass but it's barely obscured by the cloth
still ascending from your base
Ever up